See Me

I sit here on this boat

Looking at your face

Can you see me?

I'm trying so hard

To make you see me

To make you look at me

This newly found feeling

Cannot be defined

By just words alone

When I see your face

It pulls me out of darkness

When I see you smile

It fills my spirit with light

But when I see you look at her

I cringe in pain

You see her

You smile for her

But why can't you see me?

I look up at the now dark sky

And my tears begin to flow

Am I not enough?

Am I too much?

I need to know

If you care

I need to know

If it's worth it

To keep trying

Because right now

I'm confused as hell.