Learning To Love This Again
I look back and wonder
Where had I gone wrong
Why had my training and technique
Suddenly begun to plunder
I knew I wasn't very strong
I thought I was on a winning streak
To getting to my goal
A professional dancer
And I wanted this bad
I thought I was on a role
All I needed were answers
I wanted to be glad
But instead I was torn apart
Ripped to shreds my my peers
I was shattered
This art
Of perfection as a career
Had my heart scattered
Did I really want this?
I'm not good enough
Or am I?
I've felt betrayal's kiss
The rebuff
In my class's eye
An outsider
Everybody's enemy
I was that girl
Stuck between a divider
The epidemy
Of this toxic whirl
I'd had it
This nonsense was killing me
I wanted to get out
This toxcicity had me split
I wanted to be happy and free
And have no doubt
That I wouldn't quit
I left with pride
And I never wanted to return
The weight was off my shoulders
I came back with a weak stride
My last chance to learn
I was in the hands of my beholder
I was weak
This was my last shot
And I wanted it so much
I took every critique
I gave it everything I got
And soon I was off this crutch
I excelled more than I knew was possible
I came home ecstatic
I learned to love once more
My posture was no longer abominable
No more erratic dramatics
And my light was restored